Chapter 10

:: Wednesday, March 10, 2004 ::

Wow, this sucks. I haven't seen Anne very much lately, even though we did hang out all day Sunday. However, we just haven't talked much lately. The last few days we've been too busy. It sucks. I miss her. But I don't want her whole world to revolve around me. I just want to talk to her for longer than 2 minutes at a time. Oh well, I guess I'll get over it.

The play is tomorrow. We've had practice the last two days and last week. But is it any better? No. Still a bunch of poo. People don't know their lines, don't know their dances. Don't know anything. Those who do know their lines are too quiet to be heard or too loud and drown out everyone else. Oh its crazy. Being sound guy is a little bit of a drab. Once again, oh well. Life goes on.

I haven't done my Bible study in a few days. Or a few days before the last one I did. I just don't have much guidance right now. It feels like I'm just picking up my Bible at random and reading. So then I'm afraid I'm not getting what I need to. You know? I had a good talk with God yesterday though. Even though I still didn't do my study. Man I have things confused. Maybe that's why I haven't talked to Anne a lot. Because God is all like, talk to me first, then you can go and play.

Well, that's probably not it. I do talk to God, its just that I don't feel like just picking up my Bible and reading. I want a lesson, a plan. Well, the times I did do my Bible study it was fantisimal. I got some good lessons. But I didn't dig in very deep. Maybe I just need to renovate my mind. Just clear it out and slowly put stuff back in. I have too much mess going in right now. Its pushing out all the good stuff I need. Blah.

Man, I'm so stupid.

God is good.
Peace

:: Ben 8:34 AM [+] ::
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